My, my, my... the year 2014 is coming into a close...
I honestly feel as if I didn't do anything that was significant and I am absolutely fine with that. I needed a chill and bum year after the bullshit that I went through with friends and as President. haha!
Reflections? I've grown to have bad memories now... so I won't really remember much. It honestly started out great because ... I went studying abroad! I had a great time but even trying to remember my trip has gotten a bit more difficult. After the trip, I came back to the reality. I carried out my last semester as President of a student organization. It honestly wasn't my greatest highlights but I pulled through. Worst part was hearing your own members talking crap about you. Thinking about it now, it's all so ridiculous. In the end, as predicted, I don't care anymore and it doesn't affect me. What I learned from it was that people can be ridiculous and fake. I don't need that negativity in my life. I'm glad I got that over and done with. Those people really pulled me down and gave negative energy. I'm glad I now know how to step away from negativity. It's a lot easier now that I'm older and have experienced so many bullshit.
On the positive side, halfway and towards the end, I've realized that I am blessed with those I choose as my close and real friends. I do want to continue to keep them close. I haven't had a deep, one-on-one conversation with friends for a long time. In the end, I just needed to let out all my frustrations over conversations. I really do treasure those moments. One thing I've learned about myself throughout the years is that... when I'm friends with someone, I come with good intentions and I will sacrifice for you. I will make time for you. I am a loyal friend only if you do the same with me and that's all I really ask. My type of friendship isn't so complicated and materialistic. I'm glad a few friends recognize that :)
2015 is coming up next. What should I expect for this new year?
I'll be turning 24 years old. It will be the year of the sheep. I have lived for two Chinese zodiac cycles. I think I know what I want to do for my 24th birthday. Usually, I don't plan for it so when it happens, it's last minute and I'm totally fine with that. This year, I want to spend it with close friends who have been there for me and have changed or formed me. Of course, that means I'll do that on separate accounts. I just want to have a chill dinner or coffee date with them.
For Spring Break, I want to do something big with my boyfriend. We have never really traveled together before so I really wanna go on a cruise with him. This punk... I'm going to make it happen!
Resolutions? I've stopped caring because everyone around me would make expectations and when they didn't meet them.. they'd cry and whine about it. I learn from their experiences and just chose not to care anymore but this year... I want to make resolutions. This year I want to love myself and give love again. By loving myself, I will start taking care of my body and eating healthy. I want to get to know myself better. I want to know my good and bad sides. I want to know every detail about myself because it's good to know self-awareness. I want to give love again, genuinely. I want to reach out to friends again. Because what I went through with my friends, I hid myself away from everyone. I became introverted. I didn't care.
Lastly, I want to get back to my first love again: Dance. One main thing that I really did was during the summer, I performed with my friends at Danceworks. I dreaded it. Now I was given a break from it, I feel recharged and want to feel creative again. With the Cultural Entertainment Night coming up in April, I'm going to be dancing a lot with my friends! I'm excited. I want to create again :)
So, Happy New Years!! Stay warm and cheers to 2015!
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